as he makes beautiful what he loves." -Ernest Renan
Lie that sets free
Thursday, April 16, 2009
“If its lie that sets her free then I would lie a million times just to give her a good life.”
He would have tried to embrace her. Her tears make him weep too. But the hatred in her eyes is too much for him. His lie has certainly hurt her.
All he is hoping now is for her to cope up and forget him sooner. That would make his suffering lighter. Lighter. He has always wanted the best for her. Even if that doesn’t include him.
“I’m sorry. I just can’t pretend that I still love you when I really don’t.”
Pain crossed her eyes and tears started to fall.
He avoided her eyes and walked away from her.
Cowardice.
“You should have told her the truth.”
He hastily turns at his back only to see Marigold. Tears are forming in her eyes.
“There’s no need for that.”
“Why?”
“If its lie that sets her free then I would lie a million times just to give her a good life.”
She lowered her eyes and didn’t mind as the tears fell from her eyes.
“I-I…She’s badly hurt.”
He let out a deep sigh.
“I know.”
“You love her that much? You sacrificed your own happiness for her.”
“Sacrifice both our happiness. Is that what you called love?”
“The moment that you value more of others sake over yours. Yes, I think that’s love.”
“Now I’ve proven love is not really a good thing.” He smiled at her though the pain is still mirrored in his eyes.
He saw her weep more but now she tries to conceal it by turning her back on him.
“I can’t stand seeing you like this Hugo. It kills me.”
“What can I do? I’m a bitch’s son. There’s no other way I can change that.”
He can no longer stop the tears from falling. The sob that he kept trapped in his throat quickly made its way out. It was a burning sensation that if he tries to still avoid it, it will choke him to death.
Death. It seems to be an entertaining thing for him now. That would take the pain away. That would take all the tears from spilling.
He felt gentle hands wrapped in his body as Marigold embrace him tightly. “Can you forget her?”
He shook his head. “I don’t think I can, Marigold. She is all I ever wanted. She is my all in all.”
Amidst the pain, my love for her will remain. Shall remain.
