as he makes beautiful what he loves." -Ernest Renan
Soliloquy
Monday, April 20, 2009
I know there are things I need to do. I have to move on now. But his memory is still lingering in my mind. He has always been my greatest heartbreak. How could you ever make yourself forget someone you thought of having your forever?
I sat on the wooden swing in our backyard. It was the most peaceful place in my world. In times of solitude, it was comforting.
I know there are things I need to do. I have to move on now. But his memory is still lingering in my mind. He has always been my greatest heartbreak. How could you ever make yourself forget someone you thought of having your forever?
Hah! I need a reason to go on. But what would it be? There is no easy answer to it. And I’m more than afraid now.
What now? What would it be?
I took a few deep breathes to loosen up the tightening on my throat. Well, I think it is not making anything better. My throat felt like it was closing. Not letting the air in. It was suffocating.
It was excruciating.
Unbearable.
